What’s the plan?

I envy people who can see a clear path to their career goals. They know what they want to do, what they need to major in, and what types of jobs and internships they need to obtain. However, my selected career – sorry, dream, doesn’t have such defined limits. Often I find myself hopelessly lost in college, highly unsure if my major will pay off or if it’s simply a giant waste of time.

However, today I’ve finally put together a plan. After getting a 78% on an exam (and crying for an hour, because it’s the lowest grade I’ve ever gotten on any college exam…ever), I decided I needed to re-prioritize for my health and sanity. Cut to a day later, during a couples massage for my two year anniversary: I am finally relaxed enough to start thinking more clearly. What do I really want?

I think the obvious answer is: I don’t want to work in an office! I want to either be self-employed and/or work from home. I’d be willing to settle on going into an office once a week or once a month. It’s 2018 and I’m going into a business-tech field. I should be able to pull that off. There’s also my absolute dream of becoming a successful novelist. Working from home would be a huge advantage if I want to write on the side.

The National Gallery says that Goya recycled this canvas. Whatever was underneath wasn’t worth saving.

It’s amazing, I was lost for months years, trying to find my plan. And yet, it all came together within twenty-four hours. I think I was meant to have a breakdown yesterday, because I got right back up and put everything back together in a new way. It’s like art. I can paint and paint on a canvas but sometimes covering it all up and starting over produces a better result. Of course the layers are still there underneath, and they may peak through, but that’s part of it’s character.

In conclusion, I’ve learned nothing because my teacher emailed the class today saying she is allowing us to retake one of our exams! Hurrah!

Anyway, can you guess what my next post is about? There’s a hint in the post.

Until next time,


2 thoughts on “What’s the plan?”

  1. You’re learning an important lesson about yourself early and that’s good. Recognize that there will be sacrifices, but there will be gains. I thought that to beat the office thing, I’d just start my own business and then I’d run the office, which was true, but in the end it literally almost killed me.
    For the last four years, I work from home as a writer when I’m doing the porn addiction education stuff. Some months the money flows freely in and other months it’s a hustle. That’s sometimes stressful but it’s nice because only rarely do I have to be doing something specific at a specific time. I make my schedule and come and go as I please. I can bring my kids to their doctor’s appointments and have lunch with friends without fear of things not getting done or having to answer to anyone.
    It’s a little bit lonely at times, but the advantages far outweigh the disadvantages. I think you’re on the right track.

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    1. Luckily I am not all on my own – I have a lot of support systems. I’m not scared of not making any money anymore, because I can’t let that fear hold me back. If I do, I will accept the first salary office job that comes my way. And then I’ll be miserable for years until I can drag myself out of it. When it gets tough at least I can take comfort knowing this I’m doing what will make me happy in the long run. I’m feeling more optimistic these days – throwing the traditional job option out the window.

      As always, thanks for your comment.



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